Life

Life is hard. Life is fun. Life is full of moments, memories and mistakes. You can either chose to live in the moment, enjoy the little things of life, you can live in the past, reminiscing on how things used to be, how things were easier when you were younger, or you can live in the future, constantly worrying about what will happen next.

I am guilty of living in both the past and the future but very rarely in the present moment. I want to change this.

There are so many things in life I want to accomplish, I want to try everything, experience the world and constantly meet new people. This cant be done from the comfort of my bedroom. I have to get out and DO things, away from my normal habits and lifestyle. I have to stop using the excuses of "I'm too busy" or "I have more important things to do" I just have to go out there and start experiencing life.

There are lots of things I want to improve upon in myself, tweak and change to make myself a better person and more like the person I want to be proud of.

Here are a few

1. Unreliability

I have found more and more often that I am making plans and then having to change them, or turning up late. Even university I am lacking drive to turn up to classes or finish assignments on time. I want to be an event manager and to do that, everyone has to rely on you. If my friends, family, lecturers and even I cant rely on me... why should anyone?

2. Focus

Focus is hard, procrastination attacks as all at one point of another but I find myself dragged down by it, pulled and pushed in every direction, unable to focus on anything on the regular. My main problem is there are so many things I want to do I cant do them all at once. But if I don't do them when I feel like doing them, they wont get done at all. Take the last two weeks for example. Last week I was super focused on my social life as well as uni and finishing off all my work. I stayed on top of both but my sport and my job hunting was lacking and non existent. This week however I've had a huge focus on job hunting, applying for jobs left right and centre and sport has become a priority again, but my uni work and attendance is lacking dramatically. I NEED to find a balance, a way to manage everything, especially if I add a job to the top of this load and that I can focus on everything.

3. Spontaneity

I want to be more spontaneous. I say when I have money I'll book random trips or go on random adventures. Will I though? Will I be able to break away from life, even for a day or will I be bogged down with commitments of money, time, uni, sport, life? I am the most free right now than I will be any other time in my life (except maybe when I move out of home) but I could drop uni, travel the world, nothing is stopping me from achieving my dream except my own fear it wont work out. China* left for Europe with $2000 in her bank account and travelled for two years. There is nothing stopping me from achieving my dreams, so I want to go out and get them.

4. Motivation

Similar to focus, my motivation for simple tasks is constantly lacking. I need to find ways to excite myself about menial tasks so I actually enjoy doing them, putting the pressure on for assignments earlier than they are due so Im not rushing them on the due date. Getting involved in things that get my heart pumping and I look forward to doing each week, excitement is what drives me so I need to find what excites me and do that.

5. Saving

MONEY! Its a necessary evil that I am lacking drastically right now. The first thing I want to concentrate on when getting a job is starting up a solid savings fund. My future is coming faster and faster each day and to have a successful future, I need money. Savings will save me.

6. Health

I feel I am a relatively healthy person, I do sport 6 times a week, I walk where I can and always climb the stairs where possible. However, I still feel like I am lacking. I want to be faster, fitter, stronger. I want the ability to run for longer, jump higher and play better. I also want to eat better, choose carrot over cookies and cook and eat good meals I actually enjoy instead of junk food that I don't.

*something to try*

Instead of saying I don't want something e.g. pizza, say I don't eat it. I never eat peanuts because I can't, alcohol because I choose not to. If I stick strong and choose to not eat certain foods, it will improve my mental and physical health.

There are probably plenty more things I want to change, update and fix but these were the few on the top of my head. It is good to be back to writing, its been almost a year which is crazy...

Always reach for your goals.

Much love,

PP xx