Productivity

Hello world,

I am currently studying as a Year 12 student.

I have always been an exceptional student, doing my homework, getting A's. I am even in a specialist program for "gifted students". Because of this program I accelerated, doing year 10 subjects in year 9 and so on. That means that last year, in year 11 I was doing two year 12 subjects, meaning this year I am only doing three subjects, though theoretically I could be doing just two if I wanted. This should be the easiest year of school for me. But yet I am finding it the hardest.

This year I have NOT been able to get myself together. I have procrastinated 100 times more than usual, I've lied to teachers about how well I am going on assignments and I have not handed up work due months ago. I know that I have got myself into a mess. I have 8 weeks left of school for the year and I have about half the school work left to do.

The other night I was in the car with my mum. She knew about my situation but I think she was waiting for me to make the move and ask someone for help. Sitting in the car I started talking about all the work I had to do, about the deadlines and teachers bearing down on me to get work done. I talked about the stress of exams coming at the end of the year and how I didn't think I was going to be prepared. And I cried.

My mum, always so calm headed and sensible asked me what she thought I should do. I already had the answer. I knew what I needed, I was just scared to ask for it. See I'd always been seen by my peers and teachers as a capable person. I take on leadership roles at my school and teachers see my success there and presume I am as on top of my school work. So asking this was difficult. I told my mum that what I needed was to be babysat. To have someone else who knew everything I needed to do and helped me work through it as well as be an enforcer, to make sure I was actually churning out work.

After falling in a heap in the car I felt much better, sometimes it is great just to know you have someone who will always support you no matter what you do, how alone you feel, how much you think you have messed up.

I am starting to get my school work back in order today. We are going to write up a list of everything that needs doing, the priority of it and work from there. I hope this helps me get my school life back on track so I can graduate with a score that shows all the hard work and effort I have put in over the last 5 years.

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Much love,

Penelope Paige xx